God has been teaching me things

Oh yes he has! God has really been opening my eyes lately. I have been on this fast for about a week now. It is difficult trying not to focus all my attention on who I am fasting from. Last night at church though, I am pretty sure God answered my questions and my prayers. Master Mission Mate. In order to have the Mate (man) in my life I need to meet my master and learn my mission first. When Adam was made he met his master, God told him his mission. And while he was SLEEPING God made his mate. Maybe I just need to "sleep" for a while. Not worry about who I need to to be with. But what God wants me to do with my life. I don't need to be searching for my Mate. God will bring him to me in time. I just need to be patient. Who knows maybe I already know the guy I am suppose to be with. I am 20 (almost 21) I have plenty of time to worry about that in a couple of years. So I am going to do what God tells me. Even if I don't want to. Because his way is the right way!

Swallowed in the sea

I feel like I am being swallowed by the sea. I don't want to do this anymore. I just feel like I need space. I feel like I am holding onto something so tightly. I couldn't bare to see him with another girl, and I know he couldn't bare to see me with another guy... Why are things so hard...God give me strength to do your will, show me what that is.